Passion & Compassion

Monday, March 22, 2010

I cant taste anything LOLS. Too much sour sweets xD I miss my darling=D Ytd's performance is er.. not too bad i think? At least ive made improvement of having no trembling legs. And i would prefer no discouragement here and there for whoever i cared about. LOLS. Cant wait to receive the videos=D LOLS. And my the way, i'll reply to any tarot question posted on the blog asap=D Thanks for ur support ppl! Still cant get my athame and the stupid pot =( Seriously crazy over the witchcraft stuff =P *drank 3 bowls of soup* Talk abt overdose =P

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Thursday, March 18, 2010

Querent: Is he my soulmate?
Card-- VII of Wands
Intepretation: The 2 of you had overcome lots of obstacles from events and ppl around you. U had performed great courage and determination and succeedded. Successful advancement=D whether he is ur soul mate or not, its up to u to decide. Fate has brought u tgt and uve been through many. If u think back and recall the past memories and what u 2 gone through tgt, u have ur answer in ur heart alrdy. Blessed be=D

Querent:Will Z and i last?
Card-- Justice (VIII) reversed
Intepretation:This card symbolised false accusation, intolerance, unfairness. It may indicate that one of u or 2 of u feels that u are not good enough for the other. This card is warning u to prevent misunderstandings. Whether u 2 last anot, lies in ur own hands and how u 2 handle the differences among urself. Blessed be =D

Querent: What will my new sch life be?
Card-- Ace of pentacles ( Reversed)
Intepretation: The new sch life allows u to be really independent. U have to stay away from things and fasinations that hinders ur path. Be more imaginative during sch work will help u get better grades. Blessed be=D

Querent: Ive fallen in love with someone younger than me...
Interetation: U always have this amount of fear inside of starting a relationship. Fear that u cant be able to concentrate on ur priority this year. U take relationship as a challenge becos of ur past experience that is disatisfied and bored. Having the tendancy to relate past to the present, u are afraid to be tricked or deceive. There are also lots of ppl that u respect disagreeing and thus had receive lots of unwanted advice. In the recent future, he will still be in contact with u. Now, dont be afraid that u have not understand him enough, for it is the reason that keeps u worrying all the time, even if u 2 begin this relationship. Blessed be=D

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Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Okay. Thats it. Cant take it anymore. I mean the blog is mine and yet i feel so restricted? Maybe its been looked at and thats the reason i cant post wat i want-.- Come on it doesnt serve its purpose as an entry anymore. Its more of like an article of a person's life! Okay get a grib on myself and what i want to say? Hmm... im thinking maybe laogong cares abt too LITTLE abt himself and abit too MUCH abt me instead. Not saying that his caring/ understanding/ love is not good or excess, my point is, i just feel that im the centre of his life and he isnt. Its great to hear that he is enjoying his work and having fun. What job can be better at this time? But he is like making plans on how to have fun with me and how to buy me things i want? Im really afraid i get too dependant on him and his finance that im losing the motivation to work!Now.. thats not ideal @.@ I mean.. i need to pay off my depts o.o i WANT to. Cant say need. Or he will rebuke -.- Then i can settle down on things i want to get... like altar items i should be getting it for myself and such things like candles is really none of his concern isnt it? Reseached alot and its all surrounding abt the same things , reading the same spells blah blah. Time to be inventor and use some creative juices here and there. So good luck to the new spell im coming up with!Hmm.. its getting kinda hard becos everything is gonna work so damn great if i had the altar up =( But its still gonna work! I think? @.@
Now this is a journal=D

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One phase down with the lawsuit. Fake after all? Was so confident about me receiving the letter like so many days ago but one fine day get someone else to get my address? LOLS!! Anyway, ive not cease my activities here. Im still going to MOM =D But im going to Nafa first hahahas xD Later on im going to Sharon's house to practice but i doubt i will NOT fall asleep. Insomnia is wat u call it( not becos im watching charmed), been thinking alot lately. Rather, its reflecting and planning on life. Uncertain if im ready for the initiation or should i even be thinking abt getting altar necessities. Yeah im kinda.. stressed up. Wanted to talk to someone but realise i shouldnt turn to khoon becos its 4am in the morning -.- And joy packs stuffs and gets all tidy up when she is stress. ( My mum should be praying everyday that i get stress @.@) My table is all cleaned up. Still too awake... maybe i'll get back to the BOS. And thanks laogong for buying me wicca guide book and BOS. I really needed it right now. But why not buy urself and sent it to me as a gift? Cause i need u even more?

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Sunday, March 14, 2010

Happy white valentines to lovers!! Me and my love thought we could have sakae sushi lunch buffet( its more worth the price), but the manager just shove us when she said the offer is only for weekdays. There is no way khoon is able to eat it then? Since he is working only on weekends. Anyway we went to 18th chef for their baked rice ( delicious except the service is bad unusually bad today, maybe a shortage of waitress blah blah) promising that we will have the sushi buffet after march, while khoon will be enjoying another 2 weeks of holiday^^ Yay~ Haven got any replies from the NAFA, no negetives is something good too=D Anyway waiting for the lawyer's letter tmr morning. Cant wait to go to MOM too=D Anyway ive got tons of documentary evidence and even before a court case, let the police direct me. Not only i have evidence, i have friends supporting me, playing the middleman. When everything is done... will thank u all for ur support individually!! But first, thanks laogong^^ and those we had no idea wat happened, just rmb one thing, joy knows the penal code well enough^^

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Saturday, March 13, 2010

Watching charmed and talking to sharon on the phone=D talked alot, abt case and abt personal. Been long since im on the phone for long~ I feel kinda sorry for myself not blogging for the past one week. Ever since the nails is there its been not much of convenience to type, not say lengthy post but i need to update a little and get myself out of 7th march. The last monday that passed, khoon is working, went to his house early in the morning he requested for breakfast so i dont mind the trouble and reach his house at 6.30-.- Nothing is wrong with me lols. Ignore the awkwardness of sleeping in his rm the whole day and knowing the fact that his mother and father is walking around the house. I skipped the idea of buying lunch. Want to avoid anybody. Just anybody that i might met. In the end still too hungry, so went to but tibits. Still in cover=D lucky me hahas^^ Tuesday night was a great celebration at a torned down below-the-flat-kopitiam. Most of the food is bad. Oh ya, its an audi friend's birthday. Yeah on the house, even drinks xD Some ppl just disgust me there, trying to show how mighty they are just because they know how to gobble some liquor down the throat? Oh my.. but teasing bernard is one cool part anyway^^ I mean he is hot and cool guy, but disturbing him is fun=D A friendly way of cos. Then frm wed till today, my day and night swopped. Busy watching charmed and all^^ Chengze wants to threathen me. But his plan fail^^

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Sunday, March 7, 2010

Hahas! The nails are definately looking awesome on my fingers but talk abt conveniency-.- For the past 3 years i hadnt had problem typing the bars in audi and now @.@ PLus... putting on my contact lens!!! I cant believe i took 30 mins doing it and in the end i got one red eye instead. LOL. WTH isnt it? Hahahas! =( Now one eye of mine is without the lens. LOLS-.- Oh yeah im at khoon's house right now. Been slping till just now.. stepped into the house at 6.30am LOLS. yeah when everything is still dark xD Yeah and pink nails dont suit me =D Gonna try out audi now for awhile, then i'll try to put on my contact lens -.- and of cos my make up which came off after rubbing against the pillows @.@

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The Love For My Laopo Joy!! =D

A comment from Laogong Khoon!!This post is for my Laopo Joy and all lovers in this world! Hope that you all can take some time to read our love! =)

There is no one in this world can ever be replaced or compared to you (JOY)! Thats because there is only one you in this universe! I love you because you are you! Pretty is not AS important as all people will become old and ugly, i will too! Attitude is not as important too! Thats because even the best human in this world can suddenly turn bad in a split second, how bad can anyone or you be? =) I love you forever because you are special! I will precious you FOREVER, because i dun want wait till i lose you then precious u!!! LOVE is such a powerful feeling so lets not make love bad, as its destructive power is unmeasurable !! Its so powerful that it can destruct a human's spirit and polluting unpleasant stuff into their mind! Lets use love and STREGHTEN bond between us and make it so wonderful that everyone will precious their love one! HOPE ALL LOVERS WILL LOVE ONE ANOTHER FOREVER and make forever exist!! =D

P.S: I Love You Forever Laopo!!=D anyway sorry for using ur personal blog to blog my feeling but as you know that our share blog got no one reading it so i hope that u could let me post this and let the people around you and me know that Love is such wonderful feeling!!=D

Hoho everyone.. i just stopped a 16 year bad habit using 4 dollars!! Joy has artificial nails now!!=D Yay haha ^^ Well.. the effort belongs to khoon xD Alright. Early in the morning good news are delivered!! Im a great grandmother now!! Thanks to my daughter lumch xD Her daughter( hammy) Gave birth to 3 baby hamster!! Hope she rmb's the date and celebrate with the baby hammy's next year. Hopely she does it every semester because hamsters dont survive for years T.T speaking of which, im missing horny again =( Not to the extend for me to break down again but haix... i can still feel him resting on my palm. Although i set my alarm at 11.30pm, as u can guess i didnt wake up lols xD Leaving my house at 2 plus for daiso ( my nails!!) hahahas im still so excited over it =D The queue is long but glad i overheard an advise from one of the sales assistant there that another queue will be faster becos it has 2 cashier xD So i went over and i was served fast=D Just as i was abt to step out of the crowded daiso and thinking that im a lucky person...i rmbed abt the glue! Omg i got to requeue again? When i was queue-ing, the thought of shop lifting came to my mind =P I mean... its bad but i dont wanna spend so much time on queues-.- And too many ppl to notice what i doing.. besides.. im putting the item into my daiso plastic bag xD Well..after much consideration... the casheir called for me-.- So i purchased the glue LOLS! Guess i just spend too much time considering xD Not too bad i didnt do anything evil afterall. Walked 1km to the bus stop with 64, took a cab instead. Cause i saw 64 drive away before my eyes-.- So yeah...didnt bother to wait. I bought khoon sushi xD reward for waiting for me for so long=D Then we slept and play hardcore-.- LOLS.So innovating of him to think of such game =D Love him loads. Then he glued fake nails for me at night while watching xing guang da dao. As always, loads of comments xD The attentive laogong looks extra cute and charming =D
Dont cry because things dont work out the way u wanted it to be... Relationship between 2 person arent always as successful. Nobody promise life would be awesome.. but they promised it would be meaningful! Love you=D

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Friday, March 5, 2010

My 60th post on this blog.. time flies really!! Talking to dort dort and realise we hadnt been in contact for like a whole damn year!! hahahas xD he seems different now. And all of us landing in different place. Although im landing somewhr different.. but its gonna work out for me too isnt it? =D yeah ive applied for diploma in video production in nanyang academy of fine arts. yeah future is so uncertain but finally... ive got into something i like... hope my audition pass?! LOLS. If i dont im not sure wat else i can do alrdy hahaha. And Nafa has student grant, my parents are gonna pay for sch fees xD In any case!! hahahas im singing with laogong right now through web cam. =D He is damn loud...-.-

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Argh so frustrated by someone tat i went into audi and find some life-.- Aparently i know its not worth it, just cant accept the fact that someone dao-ed me. WTH? Okay just dont get my involved in his nonsense k? Its ridiculous!! =( Yeah im not meeting khoon today. Had a long conversation ytd. Oh yeah and i talked to someone last night. No special concerns.
Well.. it really made me think as to what khoon told me last night. he doesnt wants me to understand the real him. And yet he says i dont understand him. As in.. wth right?-.- I mean honestly. Whats the point in carrying on when there is such a serious doubt. Im uncertain whether he is unsure abt my love towards him but i have my questions too. I didnt raise it up ytd becos he will always be able to find a lame answer for it. Which is think its not suitable right now.I mean... i cant possibly love him like how i love ice. its just different! They look different, speak different, behave differently too. If i can treat them the same, im the weird one. Okay.. maybe not the same.. but loving khoon as much as how i love ice? I dont know what is wrong there but its like... at the moment... not possible. Im trying. Dont remark that i didnt.

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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

First of, sorry guys for sounding emotional now. Haha @.@ I dont know how i feel right now. Honestly empty, relunctantly happy or unknowingly sad. I didnt fuss about using tarots to give me an answer. So lost.. so incomplete. Ive always been strong. Using a nicer word, its persistant, in other words sturborn. yeah i am.. Ytd he said i didnt understand him.. Its quite a disappointment to hear tat becos its only after 8 months he point that out. Im feeling sick. We have been together for almost 3 seasons and now u said tat. Maybe i dont... its a fact like u've always said. In these 8 months, i know that u have given up alot for me. But what abt me? U know ive been calling a halt to contacting my guys, u know ive stopped work in starhub bla bla. So now what... I really dont wanna care and just let me have some time alone to think( even though i can think now) through it k?
Following, i've been constantly sending in resumes jobs other than sales to have a stable. I believe my hardwork will pay off soon~
Private school Vs Part time. Fights going on there~ Definately need more time to research on both.

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Monday, March 1, 2010

=D I forgot wat i did today. Hmm let me think... * loading briamemmory data* Okay.. This morning i wake up and nua on my bed. Cause ytd sleep late (insonmia =P). Today was half an hour late for my reunion with ella =( Im so sorry for that but well.. cant help it when im delayed. We bought of tickets first at cine leisure ( somerset) and the movie we are abt to watch is percy jackson and the lightning thief. hahahas!! Its so freaking nice!! Okay maybe becos im a rather 'magical' person so i tot that the story plot and all is very interesting and fun. Before the movie me and ella did lots of catching up, had lunch at ajisan=D their lunch meal is much worth it^^ I paid for the GST xD In any case, she went to have her right ear pierced for the 2nd hole xD Dont understand why ppl love to poke holes in their ears? @.@ We went to takashimaya and many other places for shopping, i even brought to her kiehls at nee ann city for samples=D kiehls there is rather remote so next time if im assigned there i might as well reject xD Then time for movie!! now i cant wait for the 2nd season to release =P had dinner with khoon and his family. how nice of him to pick me up at cineleisure after movie xD We had dinner at lavender, and his brother sent me home by car=D Laogong brought kimo back to stay with him=D Maybe he thinks im torturing his precious son so thats why-.- jkjk =P lastly, we played diablo and in rm until almost defeating diablo, he got to catch for the last bus, so while he is leaving, im thinking of strategy how to deal with the advocates and blood knights which is interupting me from reaching diablo. Did lots of reasearch but most of them are useless and there is no specific ways to kill large amt of advocates which are teleporting all the time and hard to aim at but yet constantly shooting fireballs to hurt my hero. Its damn irritating okay~ I dont know its by luck i found this method or not, but i mangaed to kill him without letting him hurt me at all-.- Wth LOLS. So here i am to disclose this secret and spoiler.
Diablo one( deafeating diablo aka the dark lord in level 16)
best advice for warrior heroes:
The last level, and also the most challenging level of the entire game marks where diablo the lord of terror aka the dark lord is. Starting frm the stairs u came down from( aka entrance to level 16), go around and kill enemies in the 4 different rooms. The best way to increase of chance of success and minimising damage from enemies is by luring the demons out and kill them one on one by pure strength. It will not be much of a challenge if u are a player that accumulated enough stats through new games(cheat) and is able to make ur way down to lvl 16. For monsters like advocates that can teleport and hurt u when u strike them, try to use a fireball since monsters in lvl 16 are all immune to lighting and magics. U can burn them by fire wall and what ever since they dont chase u, the best way to deal with advocate is to fill ur belt with health potions, save game regularly and dodge the fireball they cast. Although they cast fireball, ironically they are vulnerable to fires. After killing every single enemy in the room, u notice that there is a lever, pull it and u are able to go to another room that is filled with the same 2 kind of demons. Just do they same and when u pull the 3rd lever, indicating u cleared all the 3 rooms, the 4th and last room is where diablo is located. Also, for safety precautions, fill ur belt with potions again. U may need 4 health and 4 mana for the 8 belt slots. Do the same for luring out the enemies that will chase after you(try to lure out at most 6 demons at once), thankfully in diablo game, advocates and such will not chase after u unlike others which follow u step by step until they get to strike. After clearing them, rmb to save game=D The room is in a square design, and the only protection u can get is by the 4 corners of the room itself. Stay there and open ur inventory to fill ur belt when needed. When everything is ready, dont dash in like an idoit and get urself killed. U know there are other monsters like advocates which throws fireballs and kill u without getting hurt themselves. U cannot afford to go against long range and large army of enemies like this. Therefore, the best way is to make sure u are on a firewall spell, fill up ur mana ball and step in where u can see them and they can see u at just the corner of the screen.Make sure they start casting fireballs at u, hurry and cast ur fire wall spell. The fire wall is definately long enough to cover the whole empty space. Which means, u have now blocked one route out of the 4 exist from the room. Of cos the advocates are able to teleport out but only very few does . The lucky thing is, diablo will chase after u. By that, u lure him out. he will attack u using strong spells so when he chase after u, dont run!Ignore the few advocates that are attacking u with fireballs, focus on diablo which is in front of u, with all u can, use one hand on the mouse and one hand on hot keys in case u need to drink the potions. But if u are strong enough, u should be able to constantly strike him with ur sword until he dies. A cutscene will show and declares end of the game. This way, u dont even have to to deal with his minions in the room like the advocate army which is the most irritating creature in the game that keeps escaping and makes u wave ur sword in the air-.-
Credits : Joy =P

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