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Juyoi Chiang

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Geylang Methodist Primary,
Geylang Methodist School Secondary,
Nanyang Academy Of Fine Arts
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This is the only place for me to share my happiness & the only space for me to dump my sorrows. I fall in love with beautiful colours and the silence of late nights.



Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Waiting with horny.. Fight for survival..

Shouldnt have flare up just now... Cried till my eyes are dry...people must be thinking that im crazy..im not... but im turning crazy. Horny is suffering.. and i cant do anything for him.. Wonder how that feels? Its like see-ing ur family hanging by the cliff and u have no limbs, shouted but nobody came. He is in the cage right now.Lying on his stomach... trying to get some oxygen. It really hurts to see him like this. First time after we are so close... he didnt come when i commanded... Horny is so sick.. and its my fault for not taking good care of him. If i have done more research on how to take care of him... ask more people on methods and listen to experience... and not being proud to show him around to people that joy has a cute hamster... he wouldnt be so hurt...
Suddenly.. im so afraid.. to lose him like that. Such a fragile life.. and he is sick, he wont be able to communicate...like where it is hurting him.. and he is such a gentle boy.. who doesnt sqeak at all.. I know he is having a really difficult time right now... but i dont even hear him cry... Im so weak. Not even half as courageous and strong as a small hamster with a few months old. I coudnt eat anything when i know he is so sick..but i know if i dont eat... i wont be able to take care of him.I cant sleep, i want to be with him. I cannot sleep, i dont want any premonitions tonight..but if i dont sleep, i wont be awake enough for him tmr when he sees the vet. I know all these... but i just follow my mind when my heart is at work..I DONT WANT TO LEAVE HIM. Not even a second.. just hang on.. im with u...
Fed him water. Forced down by throat.. rmb that someone told me before that sugar can replace food, so i added sugar for him. God.. which ever god u are.. please save horny from this misery..
"Horny... fight for survival... fight for me.. to survive this battle.. U fell from great heights before.. Its nothing to u!! Please.. dont leave me... at least not now... Im sorry for what ive done to u.. dont punish me by leaving... Now im with u.. every second.. fighting against death god... do not abandon me.. please... I promise i will learn more.. much more to deserve to raise u up.. until u have ur own family... enjoy ur 2 years life span with choppy.. and ur going-to-be-born baby hamster..."

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