Passion & Compassion

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Why do i feel this way? =(

Men for the sake of getting a living forget to live.

Ytd was waken up early by joanna. Realise that her phone was stolen i tot to myself that im too inane to have trust that she is an irreponsible guy. Yeah, shouldnt have doubt my feelings afterall. So in the end i took her reason and i believed her=D She asked me to accompany her to all the taxi company to launch a complain regrading her stolen phone by the driver. Poor driver, if he gets caught thats the end of this job it think? Actually if its me i dont even go to that extend. The driver may have a reason for doing so. Who knows he have a mother in a critical condition and requires money desperatly. Things are unexpected right? As my father once told me:' Forget it if its lost, if it comes back to you, its ours, if it doesnt, it is not meant to be.' I tot the same way to myself. Anyway, it was a heavy downpour ytd and i got my shoe soak and u hate it because ur toes are so wet that it started to crumble up like an old lady. Eek!! Thats not all, we walked in the rain, even with the umbrella as a shelter, it doesnt seem to make things any better. my whole body is cold and shivering. Maybe its because i had a flu in the morning, and this arent helping. Joanna borrowed my phone to call the 6 taxi company. So.. guess my phone bill for this month. Yes im stingy=D But i still lent her. So dont complain about me. Besides i have to go work later. The most funny part is, we went to singtel shop to demand a suspension of her phone line wearing a starhub shirt. We had to tolerate the looks of people and carry on with what we are doing. LOLS. We totally made a fool out of ourselves i suppose!!

Then we went to meet khoon. Nothing special except for he kip asking me why im irritated. Which adds on to my irritation. U know i dont like people to irritate especially not when im alrdy fed-up enough. Anyway, at this rate. How far can we go?I kept thinking.

You see,there are a few points that we should take consideration on:

1) meeting each other everyday will make me feel normal when im with him. It makes nothing special anymore.

2)The tendancy to treasure him goes down because its too ordinary for u to see him.

3) I dont think i need to report about my whereabouts everytime to anyone. Im free to go?

4) Planning ahead is good. But not when u think for every step and everything u tries to get hidden meaning on something negative.

I mean, every relationship have fall backs. No people will experience a peaceful relationship like nothing is gonna happen to them. Humans are selfish and they think for themselves. No matter how noble the are, or how great they thought they can sacrifice for the other, when it comes to small things which seems insignificant, everything is revealed. 'I DID EVERYTHING TO MAKE U SMILE BUT U DIDNT EVEN TRY TO PLEASE ME IN ONE THING' Thats what i mean. Alvin and I tried to make each other our piority and the thing that went wrong is because he cares too much. Too much unnecessary things. Now im finally out of my restrictions from my family. It should be a time for me to finally earn some freedom. Relationships arent locks. They dont lock u tgt and let u do nothing. Its just like a handcuff. Being tied tgt by another person is a cool thing. They share lots of experiences tgt. But sometimes not every partner can take what the other partner likes. And if we tried everything and still cant reach a conclusion we should get the key. Thats not what i want T.T...But things like that affects a relationship.Yes you ask me whether i love you. Of cos i do. IF i dont, i would just out myself available for other guys alrdy. And if u want to question me any now and then, i would just find u irritating. Thats the way i am. I believe its yet another a charactor trait of typical virgo girls. They think the same way. I may be immature but im born with a brain for a reason.I like to argue for whats right but i admit it if im wrong. If u find me difficult to be with, by all means say it and we keep a distance. Trust is also very important. This morning i told u somehtings but u doubt it. If u doubt me, dont ask anything, go use ur brain or be smart enough to find out urself. Im really tired of trying to tell u how i feel abt this relationship. It would be pointless to carry on if we cant understand each other like we thought we do, or understand what its the best for us other than what we really want. So in any case, i think my 10 days to taiwan would be a good time for us to think for each other and of cos, i pray that when i return, things would be different. Love u loads~

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Realise that her phone was stolen i tot to myself that im too inane to have trust that she is an irreponsible guy. Yeah, shouldnt have doubt my feelings afterall. So in the end i took her reason and i believed her=D She asked me to accompany her to all the taxi company to launch a complain regrading her stolen phone by the driver. Poor driver, if he gets caught thats the end of this job it think? Actually if its me i dont even go to that extend. The driver may have a reason for doing so. Who knows he have a mother in a critical condition and requires money desperatly. Things are unexpected right? As my father once told me:' Forget it if its lost, if it comes back to you, its ours, if it doesnt, it is not meant to be.' I tot the same way to myself. Anyway, it was a heavy downpour ytd and i got my shoe soak and u hate it because ur toes are so wet that it started to crumble up like an old lady. Eek!! Thats not all, we walked in the rain, even with the umbrella as a shelter, it doesnt seem to make things any better. my whole body is cold and shivering. Maybe its because i had a flu in the morning, and this arent helping. Joanna borrowed my phone to call the 6 taxi company. So.. guess my phone bill for this month. Yes im stingy=D But i still lent her. So dont complain about me. Besides i have to go work later. The most funny part is, we went to singtel shop to demand a suspension of her phone line wearing a starhub shirt. We had to tolerate the looks of people and carry on with what we are doing. LOLS. We totally made a fool out of ourselves i suppose!! Then we went to meet khoon. Nothing special except for he kip asking me why im irritated. Which adds on to my irritation. U know i dont like people to irritate especially not when im alrdy fed-up enough. Anyway, at this rate. How far can we go?I kept thinking. *You see,there are a few points that we should take consideration on:* *1) meeting each other everyday will make me feel normal when im with him. It makes nothing special anymore.* *2)The tendancy to treasure him goes down because its too ordinary for u to see him.* *3) I dont think i need to report about my whereabouts everytime to anyone. Im free to go?* *4) Planning ahead is good. But not when u think for every step and everything u tries to get hidden meaning on something negative.* I mean, every relationship have fall backs. No people will experience a peaceful relationship like nothing is gonna happen to them. Humans are selfish and they think for themselves. No matter how noble the are, or how great they thought they can sacrifice for the other, when it comes to small things which seems insignificant, everything is revealed. 'I DID EVERYTHING TO MAKE U SMILE BUT U DIDNT EVEN TRY TO PLEASE ME IN ONE THING' Thats what i mean. Alvin and I tried to make each other our piority and the thing that went wrong is because he cares too much. Too much unnecessary things. Now im finally out of my restrictions from my family. It should be a time for me to finally earn some freedom. Relationships arent locks. They dont lock u tgt and let u do nothing. Its just like a handcuff. Being tied tgt by another person is a cool thing. They share lots of experiences tgt. But sometimes not every partner can take what the other partner likes. And if we tried everything and still cant reach a conclusion we should get the key. Thats not what i want T.T...But things like that affects a relationship.Yes you ask me whether i love you. Of cos i do. IF i dont, i would just out myself available for other guys alrdy. And if u want to question me any now and then, i would just find u irritating. Thats the way i am. I believe its yet another a charactor trait of typical virgo girls. They think the same way. I may be immature but im born with a brain for a reason.I like to argue for whats right but i admit it if im wrong. If u find me difficult to be with, by all means say it and we keep a distance. Trust is also very important. This morning i told u somehtings but u doubt it. If u doubt me, dont ask anything, go use ur brain or be smart enough to find out urself. Im really tired of trying to tell u how i feel abt this relationship. It would be pointless to carry on if we cant understand each other like we thought we do, or understand what its the best for us other than what we really want. So in any case, i think my 10 days to taiwan would be a good time for us to think for each other and of cos, i pray that when i return, things would be different. Love u loads~ Labels: Journal 7:37 PM ·